oh honesty... what did it ever get me?

So.... I was tagged by McMean so I guess in the spirit of honesty, I should do it... The idea is that once you are tagged you must tell 10 honest things about yourself (even if they are painfully honest!) and then tag 7 bloggers to do the same. I don't think I know 7 bloggers, but here's some shit about me...

1) I really DO think that money will buy me happiness. No matter how many times people tell me that it won't, no matter how many times they tell me that money can't buy me love, I don't believe them. I believe that enough money will let me buy good food, get a gym membership, live in a place that I don't hate (thus reducing stress), and allow me to pull my life together. This will allow me to be skinny and then people will love me... SEE... $=Love

2) Sometimes I wish I was a religious zealot. I am jealous that they have something to believe in and believe in it so strongly that they spend their whole lives living the way religion tells them to.

3) I always think of the worst possible scenario... and by worse, I mean... I have to tell my friend I can't go out with them tonight. What happens is I call and tell them, they are like, cool, we'll meet up soon. What I think is, I call, they say cool, then hang up. They don't have anyone else to go out with so they go out alone. At the bar they meet a guy who gets them drunk, takes them home and rapes them. Drunk and scared they drive home alone and get pulled over by a cop that doesn't believe them. They only get a ticket but as they are almost home they run into a tree and DIE... yeah, like THAT kinda worst possible scenario.

4) I wish I was closer to my family a LOT. Sure I'm brave and move wherever I want just because I want to, but I sacrifice the relationship with my parents. I miss them every day and wish I could be closer to them dearly.

5) I honest to god think that my parents are ashamed of me. Maybe this comes from ME being ashamed of ME but what have I accomplished since college.... nothing. Not a damn thing to brag or be proud of. More than anything I want my family to be happy for me and proud of me... this is pretty much impossible if I'm not happy or proud of myself.

6) I truly believe that animals can make you happy. I'm not a hippy or stupid, but I fully believe that in the presence of animals you can live a happier, fuller life.

7) I pretend to know more about sports than I really do to pick up guys at the bar. I know more about sports than your average girl, don't get me wrong, but I have been known to take the latest headline and say it in such a manor that makes me sound all knowing and milk it for all it's worth just to start conversation. I'm terrified they'll find me out.

8) I know I drink more than I should but it gets me out of the house and it's cheaper than shopping. I hate my roommates and on top of that, when I'm home, I'm depressed because I sit and think of how shitty my life is. I would rather go out, have a few beers, meet some new people and spend $20. In that time I could go to walmart by myself and spend $80... really it's just a matter of economics.

9) If I knew I wouldn't get caught, I would hit my GM with a car, baseball bat, or other potentially deadly weapon... I don't think, after the way she has treated me, I would feel any remorse at all. That is a scary feeling.

10) I don't think I'm worthy of being loved. I'm worthy of being fucked, screwed around with, forgotten about, pushed over, and tossed out... but not loved. What have I ever done to really deserve it?


Tagging people...
1-Giggles
2-Mama Kat... I'm sure she doesn't read my blog, but just in case...
3- Lisa from MU... yeah do it!
4-YOU!!


Ok, that wasn't really 7 people, but I don't have that many friends, so sue me... Have a great Week and if I don't talk to you before then, I'll be back next Monday with Not Me's!